The Choicepoint

[...Dar was given a choice to choose between a Ferrari presented by Julian Mantle or Julian's choaching.

"You can have this Ferrari if you want it."

"Well, if you make the choice to take the car, I can no longer be your coach. It's either this car or my coaching"

The Choicepoint is all about: making some kind of a sacrifice. Nothing good comes without some kind of sacrifice. The Choicepoint is all about LEAVING THE WORLD YOU HAVE KNOWN AND VENTURING OUT ONTO THE UNKNOWN FRONTIERS OF YOUR HIGHEST LIFE. .....]

Having known the unknown, I wanted to thank my first boss, a person whom I was meant to meet at the right time. He just came to my life from no where.

I still remembered the first meeting with him, telling me that what I have learned in the university are mostly nonsense. Are you kidding? I had got my certificate from the National University of Malaysia in Dietetics field. But now what were you saying?

In fact, I love and hate listening to him. Love to know another side of everything in this world (which I have never had a chance to know before) but hate to know how ugly the world is. My head ache seriously every time I had conversation with him. However, I chose to listen. There must be some reasons behind what this old man was saying.

Knowing the unknown was a period of confusion and suffering. I am always a person who is hungry for knowledge and answers. It can be a very confusing time because when lots of new knowledge comes at the seeker in a short space of time, it is hard to assimilate it all. But, I understand that confusion always give rise to clarity over time.

I thank myself for choosing the right decision. Then, came the Transformation and Rebirth state which can be the most challenging stage but also one of the most unforgettable. How am I going to throw away the past and be with what I know now.

Just then, another stage came. "The Trial" "Before a seeker reaches her treasure, she will face a trial."
"The purpose of the trial is twofold: first to ensure that she has learned all the lessons she was meant to learn along the way and second, to see how badly she wants the prize. It is at this stage that most people give up."

I faced a few trials before I came to know myself. I was at my second job at a slimming center as a nutritionist. It is a very well known slimming center in Singapore. It was like hell there but there, I saw the real yet fake world. I could write a few pages about why I think so, but not now. I was given a choice to leave or stay. Leaving means $2400 = RM6000 gone ( I will have more after my 3 months probabation, that's a sure). I chose to leave. I hate to see people getting hurt. I hate to see human killing among themselves.

Then, I was like s soul strolling through places to find myself. It was a hard time but now I know why I need to do so. I worked at.........The Country Farm Organics........FPO.........before I found myself dead. I faced my big question. What is the purpose I come to this world. I was desperately upset at that time. In about a year time I jumped from a job to another to another and to another. I never want that but ..... I was speechless and helpless but deep inside my heart, I knew that I still had my freewill that I could listen to.

There is a saying, when all the doors are closed for you, another door will open. It's true. After months of waiting, choices dropped in front of me. Two jobs. I was intensely tested on these. I pitied my parents. I hope to be a good daughter to please them, to please the world but I could not. I could not betray myself for money. I hope to work decently to get my monthly salary and at the end of the month, I could give them some money to spend. That's what I wish as well. But unfortunately, they have an unconventional daughter who likes to be different.

It's now RM8000 or RM800.
Hey man, which one will you choose?

RM8000 for a pharmaceutical company, selling medicine (which is strongly against natural healing)

RM800 (teaching assistant at my hometown)

I ventured into another field, with slight fear, the teaching job. 'I guess at least this won't hurt people. But I know this is a transition period I need to undergo.' Of course I felt really disturbed with that salary. I was grateful to my family. They assisted me at that tough period.

In the examination hall, you won't be given an answer until the right time. Sometimes, I felt like giving up. But, it was not long I was tested. Opportunities flooded after that.

My life is slightly different, I wonder why. I never need to look for a job and it always comes its way:
The job that comes to my way from nowhere will stick but the job that I look for will go away. So, it's all Heaven's Will 天意。天意 exists in this world. Obey to the call.  I have been on teaching job for almost 2 years. If you ask me, why teaching? 天意.

But, it's also because I tell the universe up there the criteria of the job that I want. First, I can earn a living. Second, my expertise must benefit a lot of human beings. So, the Universe helps me to find my destiny and brings my destiny to my doorstep. I am not bluffing. How it all work are miracles. Thank you my dear Universe.